The next day turned out to be much better. As you know, we shared the place with the Ellenbogens. Lala also came back from Dörögd and both he and uncle Robby kept consoling me, lifting my spirits until I started to feel like a human being again. At the same time a long letter of yours also made its way to us, which cured me completely. It made me realize that you'd need me again, perhaps when this nightmare is over, so committing suicide would have been wrong. Just reading your handwritten letter made me so happy, it is truly impossible for me to describe. I've been at the end of my rope quite a number of times since then, as you'll see on the following pages. What saved me in each instance was that I remembered the encouragement you gave me in your letter, explaining that we must pay, and dearly, for our future happiness now.
 

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