Within two weeks we were
given living quarters in the castle of Dillich. It was such a dreary
place that the twelve of us from Tapolca, who really hated to stay
there, moved into a nice, modern house in Borken which was the
neighboring town. We have been here for four months now, fully rested
and well fed, yet in a complete state of shock and horror, for this
has been the first time we could truly comprehend the atrocities and
inhumanity we were subjected to by the Nazis. No longer could we be
grateful to God or the Americans for our lives; lives of which we do
not know if they will have any meaning anymore? Whom will we find
alive in our families and how? It's true that this last year was the
toughest lesson anyone could have about how to survive; I had
nevertheless had more than enough of it....
My dear Alex, you
must know that I can't live without love and the only reason I am
still alive is that I want to be with you again in this life. If you
love me as much as I love you, then my suffering was not in vain. If
you don't have the same feelings for me you once had, then . . . . .
. . . . . . .